I had such a great day, but back in the back of My head, and that little soreness I feel in My heart exists because I got an email today.

My good friend’s ex-girlfriend had died Friday. He has been a damaged boy since she left him in LA a year ago and ran back to New York. There was an invisible teather between them despite the break up and distance. Before this happened he would give his prideful announcement that he wasn’t ging to put up with her crazy calls and all the roller coaster she put him on… it was obvious he was just hurting and heartbroken.

I have been trying to reach him on the phone just to give a nice refuge and tight hug, and try to help in whatever way I can. I imagine he has hidden away, perhaps with a bottle, no doubt with a sedative and tried to sleep the pain away. Poor baby. I know how much pain he was in over her moving back to NY, but I can’t begin to imagine how much pain he feels now that she has gone away for good, somewhere she can’t call from or come back from.

Hopefully he won’t allow it to suck his life from him, and maybe he will put the pain he feels into his music…

It’s been a long time since I have been attracted to any guy from physical appearances alone. I usually am not someone who is shallow enough to even see the outside without having met a pearson on a more substancial level…but tonight I was totally wanting to hurt this lovely boy in latex at the Dr. Susan Block show…was it him or the Skin Two latex shirt he was wearing?

I had him lube up with My silicone, and I wanted to help him lube the really hard to reach areas…like the prostate.

I asked him if it were so wrong that I wanted to hurt him…he said “I expect no less from you as a Domme”. Ever meet someone and just want to bite them and shake them vigorously?

Well, the one thing I really was looking forward to the most this evening was Holly Stephens (aka Holly Wood). Last show Holly, her husbands and I bonded. She looks so much like Claudia and has the same sweet playfully innocent debachery to her. The woman child. Other than doing a rope harness on her from collar bones to ankles, they had passed out “pocket rockets” and being two frisky wild girls…it just so happened we ended up laughing at each other as we held vibrators to each other’s clits.

The visiting toilet-messy boy came with. he has been a treat all weekend. he is fun, dedicated to being a filty pig for My amusement, and I must say he isn’t hard on the eyes once the contents of My bowels and stomach have been washed off, lol. Always a good thing when they are easy on the eye.