I spent the day with my lover and “empty”.

First at the voter’s polls. And yes, I voted.
Then we dashed about before Art for Art Sake, or what they should call more truthfully for most of the attendees…Drunk for Drunk Sake. It was fun but a bit premature since Sean had to go to work.

We headed to a sushi buffet, and then “empty” and I headed off to Magazine St. to hit the events up and down the street.

I met up with reverend Spooky la Strange (one of the performers with Lil Beaux Peep Show), then we walked about, waiting for Sadie Corset (director and performer) to complete her obligations to the establishment she works for and meet up with us. I waited for Sadie at another venue, and lost Spooky. that was okay. I had a lot of great conversation and heard a great many interesting stories, and met many wonderful new characters. Nothing was lost, I just was enjoying her company previously.

Sadie seems really on the ball, a driven and ambitious girl, in all the right ways, just like myself. I am glad to see not all of new Orleans is made of hopeless flakes. I am so excited about being back in a performance company.

I spent no less than 15 or so hours a week in rehearsals of various types when I was an adolescent. I even would often spend atleast 60 hours in rehearsal in the summers, if not more. I was training in vocal, theatre, dance, and even learned to run lighting, do props, and costuming. I miss it tremendously.

Ugh, the work and dedication is driving…maybe that is why I think that all children should live that for a period of their childhood. It is character building…it instills passion and pride for what they can create, and actually gives them a well rounded collection of skills. It burns a ot of a child’s excessive energy, and gives them pride and accomplishment. i think that is how I got the additional drive I have today.

I am dying to get a chance to have the feeling of working constantly with a company again. I don’t expect to be a star in the show, I mean, we all get a chance to have a routine all our own, but there is no true Star to a company…it is a family, with a common goal, and a shared public image for the most part.

I really like and respect Sadie and all the hard work shehas invested in it. I know what she has been through. Tonight we combatted many silly rumors about the exclusivity of auditions, and other dumb stuff. This is something I am all too familiar with in my realm of dealings in the scene.

I have had so much fortunate involvements lately…a lot of the negative stuff I have witnessed seems redeemed…I feel that people aren’t as instinctually lazy, and petty as I was starting to take them for. I think these girls are fascinating and showing me that all the crappy things I witnessed are not the rule of thumb.

My lover is even a pretty nifty, quality, sweet passionate and caring guy, and with a brain no less…that is refreshing compared to a lot of the people I allowed in to my life in the past couple of years.

I am restoring my faith that there are some really okay people in this town other than my close friends and slaves. I kept getting disappointed that all that was outside my nice safe little family were flakes and petty drama, and I was wrong. thank god.

It has been a long hard day…due to other people I was unable to allow a 2 hour session that was previously scheduled…I had no control over this situation and I am very pissed. Things are taking a drastic change around here after that little screw up.

I have been busting my ass all day. I always do lately. I have a session in a short while, that will be a great way to let off a little steam.

Atleast I got to chat a bit with one of my favorite on line hotties. I really have to switch back to my crappy mouse tonight so I can get on cam. It’s driving me nuts. And due to all that fun, I now have a “cookie dick” wall paper on my computers wall paper. It actually makes me hungry…lol.

I have been toy crazed on ebay, found really great deals. I have been showing one of my slave boys and then comparing the prices with him to those in the catalogues…he is in shock. Many are 75% less expensive than those in the catalogues, and sold by the exact same people.

I have just built a yahoo group for the Burlesque Troupe I am involved in, it will soon have pics up, as soon as Sadie Corsette gets on with me, and I get some pics scanned.

the address is http://groups.yahoo.com/group/lilbeauxpeepshow
join and keep up to date on the local shows, and share pics of the show.

I actually missed my first Thursday night since the Shim Sham closed.

I stayed home alone and worked my ass off, and now it is time for bed.

I called my baby brother and wished him a happy birthday (I remember the day he was born, 23 years ago). He was on his way to plastered, I could hear the bar in the back ground. I guess you could say, growing up my brother was my first slave. I spoke for him, I disciplined him, I humiliated him, I even tied him up and dressed him like a girl…who would have thought that years down the road I would have made that a full time way of life and a means of support. he even writes lots of college papers about me.

He lives in Tampa and runs the first and only city owned Skate Park. He opened it himself. He is in college, and lucky basterd had a trust, I didn’t. But then again, out of all my grandmother’s grand children, I was the favorite, the golden child…which is odd since they had only daughters, you would think all their wanting for a boy would have made my brother or cousin Bradley the favorite.

I still talk to my Nina a lot. I ruffle her feathers just to keep that healthy spunk in her so she keeps living. She is strong, and I got a lot of me from her. She is so cute. I love her with all my heart. I even let her know I am into bondage, leather and corsets. She doesn’t approve but she loves me regardless, and she is so important to me.

Winner of the day:

How bright do you have to be to ask how to make your asshole gape?

I mean…how do you make any hole gape…stretch it. I mean, just gradually build in the size of butt plug you use. You can put it in when you go to sleep, and have it retain the open hole. Gradually change the plug up a size. he asked “don’t you have to move it in and out?”. NO! you can just let it stay there, just let it grow accustomed to staying wide, now in-out necessary.

He asked why questions I would like to be asked…I answered ones that you couldn’t answer with just thinking 5 seconds on their own. I mean, it is a waste of my time and yours to not think…

Your Life: The Movie by mintyduck
Who will play you:	Shannen Doherty
Who will play your love interest:	Mary-Kate Olsen
Weeks you will stay in the box office:	1
Song that will play during your love scene:	Massive Attack – Teardrop
Song that will play during your death:	Johnny Cash – Hurt
Your name:
Created with quill18‘s MemeGen!

I had a really great time at rehearsal…in February I will be the calendar girl.

I stopped in the Contemporary Art Center since I could get on the computer while waiting for an ex of mine to swoop by and pick me up to lunch together. We had a lovely lunch in the cool fall breeze on the balcony at Sugar Magnolia.

I then went home and got on line and did a few things before my slave I shall call “bammy”. (For “Ala-bammy). I had him do a small list of chorse, moste of which were done very well, but when I say clean the counters…the counters still exist under the microwave…he is still getting accustomerd to the house and it’s workings.

I decided to test out my new video camera. I put him in japanese rope suspension, and I had him in the air, I kept pushing him so his weight would shift. I did very tortures in that state, before I took pity on him for the ropes that had his crotch squeezed. His identity was masked in a leather hood so no matter what the tape doesn’t risk his discretion. After being let down I had him service my strap on, and then he was permitted to watch the tape with me and Jacque.

I am tired now, but happy, and I think I should read a bit more of my book before I retire.

My first monthly since he and I have been dating and he shows up with a bottle of champagne, and a bouquet of roses, one white, and the rest are red. The card said “You are the one who always stands out from the rest”.

We slept from around 9:30 p.m. till he had to get up at around 10:30 a.m. He has to go finish writing his stuff for tonight at a group he is a member of. I have to hurry and get ready for rehearsal of the Lil Beaux’s Peep Show.

I have more toys coming in this week I have to see what happens with the shipments while I am gone today. I have the new chair for the dungeon. And I also have to wait on the new pink leather “pig” hood to come in soon. I have to make a call on the extra large “love ewe” I am ordering. I should hunt the re-sale shops for some really Bubba over alls so I can play “redneck beastiality farm” for fun.

I don’t think I’m going out tonight…Deana won’t be at the club, and I don’t feel like it. I have a lot of other stuff todo.

I am so happy and so thankful to one of my devoted and hopeful subs that I talk to regularly on line.

I thought the package that was due to arrive today was the new dungeon equipment…I thought it was strange that the package was so light. I figured the size was due to assemblage being required. NO…it was a gift of a wonderful Hi-* Sony camera. I can’t wait to shoot movies, and my very specially personal slaves will get such gifts of personal video’s for Xmas.

I have to see if Ican send thie tapes to the return address in grattitude, find a way to address it where if it is opened or discovered, no one can trace it to him. I guess if i tell him of a name it is going to be mailed to, he can try and intercept it before anyone else gets it.

Wheeee. I have longed to shoot videos on my own..I am still supposed to shoot for 2 different companies so far, but I haven’t gotten all that straightened out.

I loath it when people are late…I get up and start my day, and people don’t have the decency to call immediately when they are running late.
Maybe it is just the menses talking, but I am extremely crabby today. The pain in my uterus is enough to make me bite someone’s head off.
It was making me have dreams about beating people in the head with meat tenderising mallets.