I am crossing my fingers about tonight.

I hope people really overcome the obstacles and attend the show. If they do, it is one step closer to seeing that they should house, if not sponsor or throw a decent fetish event in New Orleans.

So many things are not in our favor. There are parades happening right next to the club venue, so it is difficult to park, and even the performers have to walk a few blocks to get there with their bags and arround parades. It is an early show, and double booked so we don’t get to take up the whole evening with our show and special guests. That sucks.

And another thing that can hurt the turn out tonight…One person has been in a very public drama and may have people detered by such things. And another is the lovely rumors and gossip set forth in the BDSM by a person who has never even met me. And the people that are rude on-line and try to hurt a good show because of their personal issues, or friends personal issues with someone in the ranks of show production.

Hopefully these people that are so easily detered by petty crap will see the big picture…New Orleans has no fetish clubs, no major fetish events that are advertised to those out side of the scene and tourists, no scene or fetish events that get us recognition in magazines like Skin Two or Marquee or even American fetish and domination magazines like Taboo, DDI, American Dommes, or even the lesser magazines like Nugget. We have no stores that realize that there is latex that doesn’t come in a box and rip when you try to unfold it the first time. This town has hardly any fetish clothing available except cheap vinyl, or Lip-Service, and in the whole city only one store sells Stormy Leather Corsets, and they have only one style and it is only in black. They also don’t realize that the average woman or girl in the BDSM or Goth scene that would possibly buy such outfits are larger than a 6 or 9, and that even though some are 6 and 9 in the lower body, cheap clothes-including Lip-Service doesn’t make room for breast!

We are a port city, with a heavy tourist population. We have tons of money spent by them and they like anything that makes them feel wild, kinky or involves voyeurism of other people’s sexual tastes.

We have the foundation for a decent fetish scene, and we have a town that is 24/7 unlike most cities that hold major fetish events.

We don’t have the population of London and New York, but once you actually build up your events over time to the size and quality of Torture Garden and other such events you aren’t relying on the locals…people come from all over.

It takes time, it takes little things happening first. It takes things like having fetish celebrities and burlesque artists having places that will pay them to come in and do a show. It takes a venue having confidence that your first events will have enough draw to make a decent profit over the expenses of the show.

If people don’t discard their differences and just enjoy a show and support their community then it hurts us all. Not only the people you want to not support, but it makes it where a club owner thinks that doing such a show would put him at loss.

By showing up to such events our true numbers are counted, which allows for more performers and shows that we don’t have, and larger events to slowly start happening here.

Your attendance, your cover, you are what makes a successful scene.

I or any other person can bring such performers here, but there has to be $$$ to make it happen, and money comes from attendance. We could bring them to empty rooms over people’s laziness and idle gossip and eventually a club will drop support of the night, or event, or show. Soon, yet again we would have no one coming here.

I hope that people really realize that there hasn’t been any fetish event (unless gay) with an internationally reknowned performer, even if it were just a modest weekly show of 4 girls in any rememberable point of New Orleans’ existance. And there won’t ever be if support isn’t given to those who bring it to you. Love or hate or believe what ever you want about who ever…but atleast respect that these people are the type that try to make this town have something cool other than sitting in a bar on Decatur the same as you did last week.

Really, a lot of the negativity I get is more from the fact of how much I am out there doing. It makes people credit me as being concieted but I’m not. I just figure why bitch and do nothing like the rest of this town, when I can struggle to make it better. That type of aggressive persistance isn’t always popular. Screw populararity if it gets in the way of me and what I want.

I don’t care if you like me so much as respect the effort to change this town, and give the support to make my efforts effective.

W

I can’t wait.

We have Mistress Amrita ( http://www.tokyomistress.com )all the way in from Tokyo and Creme Brulee’ from Ixion Burlesque Company in NYC performing with the Lil Beaux Peepshow and to boot it is my birthday at midnight, and Mardi Gras.

We need you to come out and support this performer and the Lil Beaux Peepshow. Show the owners of our larger live venues the interest in fetish performers and burlesque, so maybe one day they will be supporting us in holding a fetish event people will travel great distances to attend.

The show begins promomptly at 9 p.m., and the Howlin Wolf double booked tonight, so the show will end at 11, before a band takes over the venue. I was hoping that we would get to have the whole evening, but that just leaves us able to go else where and celebrate.

Amrita is the first international fetish performer I know of to do a show in a regular venue, advertised to the public in all of New Orleans. There have been demos and workshops at local functions held by NOBLE and NOSS, but this is actually the type of show that is done at major fetish events like Torture Garden and Rubber Ball. And it is done in a non-bdsm environment with a prodominantly vanilla audience, so it will be reaching a lot of people that have misconceptions about the sensual nature and art that bondage and S&M really is.

Who knows, maybe this will lead to us slowly bringing more performers from international fetish events to town, and building an interest enough to make a major fetish event happen here. This town could use it. We have great nightlife and tourist attractions for other events, why not for fetish events?

I intend to bring Amrita back as often as I can so we can get a fetish event worth people traveling across the world to attend. Also, I get the added bonus of learning more about shibari techniques (the ones only able to be learned by private instruction).

I hope all of you try to support this type of performance in our city, as well as the Lil Beaux Peepshow. Show large venues like Howlin’ Wolf that there is a market to hold and house such events. Not just the bands like Genitorturers and Impotent Sea Snakes, but real fetish celebrities.

I talked to Mistress Persephone, and she is waiting for me to find a way to get her a show or event to do here. Many Mistresses love New Orleans, and travel for sessions here..so we definitely are over due for something like this, especially after the cancellation of “Fetish in the Fall”.

Mistress Genevieve

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http://groups.yahoo.com/group/mistressgenevievesslaves
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/lilbeauxpeepshow

After a 14 hour flight from Japan to New Orleans Mistress Amrita arrived.

It was a relaxed evening. We had some Juan’s Flying Burrito. We picked up some Fu-Ki plum wine and sat at the house watching a few movies. I showed here Superstarlet A.D. which is one of my favorites. We also watched Videodrome and House of 1000 Corpses.

I have been up all day working on this costume still.

Tonight we are off to Howlin’ Wolf with the rest of the Lil Beaux Peepshow. While there all of us are going to be on stage with the band Ratt Poison which is an 80’s hair metal cover band. Then who knows what will happen.

I have been up all night workingon stuff so I really need a nap later. It will be a while till then, and it will be brief. I have too much stuff to do.

often part of being a Dominatrix is being a sexual advisor…even when the slave isn’t your own.

I felt that this circumstance is a common one.
This is my responce to a slave that is in love with a Mistress, and she is happily married and not returning of such intense passion:

Did you reveal that to her?
I mean it is common for slaves to be in-love with their mistress, and their mistress be caring yet not in-love with the slave. Infact, being in love would make someone suddenly submissive to a point, and if she reciprocated the emotions I think you would find her less desirable. The fact that she cares yet doesn’t return your passions is just fuel for obsession. I don’t think you’re the first…it is just that most Mistresses have a line drawn with slaves as to the ultimate potential of their relationship, and it would take someone truly a soul mate to break down those convictions…in older worlds and societies where there were real slave and masters, even when in love the masters would never marry or be in a true romantic relationship out of their class or caste.

Just as the emotion of rage is dangerous for a dominant when dealing with a slave, the emotion of passion is too…it ruins the ability to be the sadist and tormenter that you need her to be.

If you haven’t been obsessive and brought your affections to her in a negative manner yet, then I advise you return to your mistress and be happy to be able to serve her in any way or level she allows, and feel fortunate to be her’s.

Mistress Genevieve

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There was a knock at the door today. I opened it thinking it was Lucia arriving for her session. It was my neighbor instead. In her arms she had a quite heavy box with a bow on it and a card with my name. Appearantly, I had missed a delivery. There is now a rather nice, and definitely a conciderably high priced bottle of champagne in the fridge.

Natasha was with me when it arrived and she declined to want to open it. The XBF and I chatted on the phone about it, but it seems not I or anyone else is interested in drinking. Even though it isn’t rare that I don’t feel like drinking, I am in New Orleans and it is Mardi Gras, and no one felt like drinking.

Atleast the XBF reminded me that it will be a great way to great Amrita when she arrives. Popping a bottle and kicking back. I am sure she will want to relax here and adjust after her travels, especially since there is a whole week for her to be a tourist. I imagine no less than the first 3-4 hours will be becoming comfortable and settling down in the house as my guest and perhaps getting dinner.

I was extremely disappointed today to find that our show sunday will be followed by a band. This means that we start early, 9:30 and end by 11:15. That completely sucks. I was hoping to drag the show on longer than usual, bt the venue has a double booking that night! We still will have Mistress Amrita, and I will still be performing with Lil Beaux Peepshow that evening.

I rarely ever read the Howlin’ Wolf discussion board but today I did. There was a post that I am sure was meant to be a compliment, but it really was ultimately an insult.

In someone’s post that was negative in reference to the show as a whole it singled me out in a positive way. I wish that I could accept the compliment that they intended, but to do so would be to insult my fellow cast members and under rate all they do in and for the show.

This person credited me with being the draw of the show, and stated that if it were my show that perhaps I could change the show for the better.

I have been asked why I don’t just go off and do a burlesque show of my own in light of the recent drama on that list and amongst present and former members. I DON’T WANT TO RUN A BURLESQUE SHOW! I love promoting the show, and in turn promoting myself, I love thinking up new and efficient ways to improve props, sets and costumings, but I rather be responsible for me, and do all these other things by choice as a member rather than obligation as the leader.

Now, I love fetish performing, and I would love to have a small troup of fetish performers to book and tour with, and perhaps do burlesque as a hobby on the side of being serious about fetish performing, but I don’t desire to run a burlesque show. Lil Beaux Peepshow allows me to bring soft core fetish scenes into the mainstream by mixing it with Burlesque and theatrical costuming and skits.

I love shedding a little light on BDSM and fetish in the mainstream, and helping to disolve the myths and horrors. I like showing the uninformed that BDSM is often nurturing and playful.

I also feel really uncomfortable with the compliment on that discussion board because I know of someone who reads it that is probably very insulted because it was her dream, her vision and she brought it to Howlin Wolf and now I am getting credit I don’t want or deserve and she is getting none.
I sensed that she was a little angry about something today, and I asked her, “Is something wrong, you seem a little angry.” She denied it.

My self promotion skills and my reputation and following is why I was asked to join the Burlesque company in the first place, but I feel it may be the same reason that eventually it comes to an end. Ugh, I should start working on booking more fetish shows. It appears that in March we will start doing the show only on the last Sunday of the month.

Oh my. I am trying to get all these costumes ready before I retire for rest. I have finished the back ground, costume and wig for Poison Ivy, I have done one leg of the Black Widow. I really don’t have to decorate the new piece I bought for Snow Queen if I don’t have time. I am wondering in the last brief hours before I head to rehearsal if I might find a song for the Snow White number which I decided to call ” How about them apples”. That number and Little Red Ridinghood are both costumed already with the exception of the wolf/grandma’s cap and nose, and the dwarves shoes.

I am hoping that I can find a bit of time to make a back drop for Snow Queen before Sunday night. It will just be a simple white netting with glitter snow flakes . I also have to lug all the costumes and props to the venue through the peak of the parade.

On top of all the stuff still to make before Sunday night, I have to make fly wings for Craig. It is his birthday too. His birthday wish is to be given to Amrita to be used for Shibari.

I just tried on the Poison Ivy costume for the first time. Damn it was hot. I am debating on making a skirt to go with it too. I can’t find the gloves I was going to use for Poison Ivy. I do still have to dye a rope green and put leaves on it for that number.

Very early this morning Craig mixed and burned the cd for my numbers.

I can’t decide if I will do “T&A: Talent and Ambition”. I am also debating on “Diamonds”, “Fever”, a solo version of “Junko the Clown”. I am not in the mood lately for “Babaloo”. I think it would be wise to do “Puss and Boots”. It is a real crowd pleaser so we use it for the finale when it is in the line-up.

I am happy to hear that an aquaintance I know through my XBF and am quite fond of will be trying to go to the show in spite of her recent chemo. Many people survive cancer and hopefully she will be one of them.

I know that several weeks ago they had already started pre-selling the tickets for Sunday, and while in Pensacola a few people told me that they intended to be here for it.

I am just really excited. Especially since this is close to what I was working on with a local club. I already intended to book Lil Beaux Peepshow, and I had another Mistress I was talking to for the fetish ball I was working on. Well, the club owner kept procrastinating so I didn’t have the budget for the Mistress I wanted for that event. I hadn’t yet joined Lil Beaux Peepshow at that point, nor had I met Amrita back then.

When Amrita and I met I still wasn’t with the show yet, and we talked about her staying with me for Mardi Gras. At that point I admired her work I had seen pictures of, but when i realized my birthday, the show, and her visit all coincided, things just seemed to fall into place. It wasn’t my original grand plan, but I am very happy with how things have turned out. Maybe after this show/birthday party/fetish event the club owner will see things more clearly and realize I am not one of the notorious New Orleans flakes he is used to.

All this makes me not only want to get back to Pensacola, it makes me hungry for September to arrive so I can head back to do the Annual Fetish Ball. Hell, why am I thinking about that when I have the fortunate honor of speaking at DomCon, April in LA, and am going to Dressed to Thrill in Vegas in May. I know why…because every year the Dare Ware Annual Fetish Ball is where my close friends and fellow perverts I have known since high school will congregate in fine fetish attire not ever seen in New Orleans.

That is one thing about this town…people are too lazy to dress in their gear unless they are gay. My theory is a lot of people that go out down here are the type that don’t know when they will leave the bar they are in. Some of these people will stay out 3 days or longer since the bars don’t close.

Oh, last night’s dinner was delicious, though I felt hungry after. I loved the tuna, and I think it might have been the first time I had rabbit, which was served with duck and quail.

We had a little fun at a doctor’s office. It was an exercise in humiliation. I asked his doctor if she knew of surgeries or devices that really would lengthen his short penis. This was a game between me and him but his doctor wasn’t aware that it was our prank and she seemed really uncomfortable. I kind of felt it was a role reversal of the common situation where a guy pushes his girlfriend to get a boob job.

Otherwise, I got home after picking up stuff to work on the props and costumes for some new numbers for the party/show on Sunday. Yes, that is right, this Sunday is my Birthday party. When the clock strikes midnight I will be 29.

I spent atleast 7 or 8 hours working on my Poison Ivy costume, and a sheer back drop with leaves and ivy. It turned out so pretty.

Tomorrow I have rehearsal. This is the last short spread of time to get all these numbers together. Ugh, I have so much to do.

I am not ever going to order from Moolight Cafe again. First I order a $10 hamburger. It arrives cold
with none of the toppings that distinguish it from their cheapest burgers and almost an hour after it was ordered. I am told that a replacement would arrive with in 30 minutes. It is an hour and a half later and several promises of 30-45 minutes later it has not arrived. I have a session coming and they still claim that the replacement burger is on it’s way.

This is not the only order I have made from Moonlight Cafe that has gone arye. I have ordered their hummus before only to have it be rancid.

For a town that is supposed to have the best food and restruants I have had the worst dining experiences of my life here. To mention but a few…I have had to re-order the same sandwich 3 times in one evening because it was supposed to come with chicken on it and the cook must have been a vegitarian. This was a shame coming from a restruant that rarely ever does me wrong…Cafe Roma.

I went to Tujaque’s on Decatur in the Quarter. They charged us $75 per person with out drinks, and brought out dried over-boiled brisket, the noodles were obviously sitting on the stove for a long time and excessively swollen, and the crawfish was Chinese crawfish and had freezer burn.

And I don’t even know where to begin with O’Henry’s greasy dishes, and St. Charles Tavern.

I had a super terrible experience at a sushi bar in Pensacola. We went to Hot Rock Sushi and spent $80’s only to have the rice be blech! The rolls were coated in sauces that weren’t complimentary to the taste of the fish at all, and the rolls on the menu were hardly any identifiable type of sushi at all. It was a case of people trying too hard to show off with sauces rather than understanding that a lot of the beauty of sushi is the simplicity, fresh, clean taste and texture, much less the health.

I wasn’t impressed with Marisol’s durring the Food and Wine event one year, but it wasn’t repulsive. It was a special event sponsored by the Vineyards and wine distributors, yet the food came out in spoonful’s for each corse. Literally it was in a spoon, and that was all you got. How cheap can you be when we were paying about $125 per person!

I am forgetting so many restruants I have ordered from in the last 4 years that I have just refused to eat more than the first bite due to it’s putrid flavor, or poor quality. It’s a shame when you spend over $100 on dinner and wish that you had stuck to a 99 cent burger.

On the other hand, some of my best experiences in eating in town have been The Emeril’s restraunts, Uglich’s, Christian’s, Palace Cafe, Gallatoir’s, Reginelli’s, Angelli’s, and of course all the sushi bar’s that I can’t possibly live life with out.

All this just makes me long for tomorrow to hurry up so I can have dinner on the balcony of Palace Cafe on Canal Street, during the parade.