I am such a stubborn brat when it comes to getting sick.

Lolita asked if I wanted to go home. I tend to down play getting sick, but the last 2 days I spent all day sleeping due to My allergies to cigarettes always setting in a small respritory infection, then couple it with cold and My OCD work-a-holic nature.

Just a year and a half ago this lead to Me not knowing that I had come down with pnuemonia for over 3 or 4 months.

I will get all wound up in wanting to do things and refuse to acknowledge My body trying to lay Me out.

I have this obscene stubborn nature and defiant need to prove that I can physically over come and over power not just My subbies but My own body and nature itself. I usually refuse even asprin because I insist I am tougher than the pain. I know it is silly, but I just don’t like feeling weak to anything.