I went to Numbers, where I practically lived every night most of my life…
It was the same as I left it, and I really enjoyed the people I spent My time with, but I am in one of My moods.
Pretty much it boils down to I give My self anxiety…things with Me are either very very wild and playful or extremely serious. I just can’t seem to figure out the relax button.

Some of it is that the performance has to be rearranged due to a person being a flake…and thankfull Sonny will be joining me, but the other character was esential to the umph of the performance.

Some of it is that I really am impatient when it comes to getting my way, and some things I want require a lot of waiting and time to be done correctly, or else I have hell trying to fix the consequences that come from not properly planning.

Another part is that I am really a work-a-holic, and even worse is that my work is directly tied into my biggest passion, so if someone doesn’t entertain Me with wild thrills I am bored and just start obsessing about getting to My notebook, or a computer and making lists of things I can do to achieve My goals.

Also it is close to show time so I am starting to get antsy…see burlesque is all tease and flirt, but I want to give a fetish performance more demention than just flogging. The show I was going to do was going to be a tongue in cheek political role play applied to a fetish show.
Now it is just iconographic.