I wore latex the other night, I am wearing it tonight, and I will be in it for part of the evening tomorrow.
Tomorrow night is the show. I hate that I have to cart all sorts of clothing, the scene is going to be less based on playing and more on tease. Sonny came by to run through it today.

So here I sit waiting for Jason to pick me up for sushi and then off to Numbers. Friday night is like church…same time every week and you feel guilty when you don’t go.

I am just loving the way the silicon feels slipping on My skin, and the resistance and stretch of latex squeezing My body. It reminds Me of how it felt when My old ball python would tighten on My neck. I don’t even need a reason to wear it, I can just sit at home and enjoy.

I share in My friend Lara Paine’s frustration in finding a slave.
I had a good start with a coulple of them I was interviewing for My move and they all went south, now this other one keeps TELLING Me how it will be…

HELLO! I don’t handle topping form below. If you want to have it your way then you pay for a fantasy roleplay session, but if your are going to be My realtime lifestyle personal slave. This isn’t topping and bottoming, this isn’t merely dominant and submissive this is Slave owner and slave.

I take the time to ask questions and make the applicant fully aware of My expectations before we even start to really do even distance training…if you know that what I am looking for isn’t right for you it is the time to keep moving and seek a collar somewhere else.

They are all so desperate for their fantasy that they will say anything, and then waste your time, or get cold feet.
If you want to call all the shots, and not serve to please Me but to get your rocks off, and not commit to a real 24/7 relationship then it is only fair that you either find a friend that will entertain this or come for a professional appointment. Why should I take time out of My day and energy for a stranger that doesn’t intend to put something back into My life what he takes out?

And what idiot thinks that I need a sex slave? I mean if I really wanted to have sex for the sake of sex, it is everywhere…
If I really am hard up for an orgasm I have toys that most people don’t even know exist. I think that allowing a submissive man to penetrate only confuses him. The male sexual role is usually a dominant aggressive act, and otherwise he is on his back and passive which makes him little more than a dildo (and trust Me, dildos stay hard, don’t cause me problems, and won’t get you pregnant with or without a condom).

No attractive needs a slave to give her sex. Passive sex is bad sex. I think that attractive dominant women and passive men are the whole origin of cuckolding.

I went to Numbers, where I practically lived every night most of my life…
It was the same as I left it, and I really enjoyed the people I spent My time with, but I am in one of My moods.
Pretty much it boils down to I give My self anxiety…things with Me are either very very wild and playful or extremely serious. I just can’t seem to figure out the relax button.

Some of it is that the performance has to be rearranged due to a person being a flake…and thankfull Sonny will be joining me, but the other character was esential to the umph of the performance.

Some of it is that I really am impatient when it comes to getting my way, and some things I want require a lot of waiting and time to be done correctly, or else I have hell trying to fix the consequences that come from not properly planning.

Another part is that I am really a work-a-holic, and even worse is that my work is directly tied into my biggest passion, so if someone doesn’t entertain Me with wild thrills I am bored and just start obsessing about getting to My notebook, or a computer and making lists of things I can do to achieve My goals.

Also it is close to show time so I am starting to get antsy…see burlesque is all tease and flirt, but I want to give a fetish performance more demention than just flogging. The show I was going to do was going to be a tongue in cheek political role play applied to a fetish show.
Now it is just iconographic.