I need a vacation but I don’t know how to take a break from working. I can easily not book a session, but I can’t seem to relax and detatch from my work.

I went to the doctor a while back for a check up, and my doctor expressed concern that I might have aheart attack at an early age due to my body type and obsessive driven nature.

I have always found hard work to be comforting. When I have nothing left to do I invent more work for myself.

Idle hands are the devil’s play thing.

Mistress Lucia thought that she would be able to work around the rude calls and keep her cool, just as I did when I moved here, and with in the first two months she realized that New Orleans is completely differnt than Texas. I thought that the local Mistresses were rude and short tempered whenI moved here, but like Lucia, I also reaalized that the locals can be very trying on your very last nerve.

Despite being a work-aholic I find that the calls I recieve in New Orleans leave me crabby, and I have to struggle to get my head space for sessions. In Houston, I rarely ever experienced a “no-show”, the submissives were punctual and the inquiring calls never were the disrespectful people I have encountered in the professional scene of New Orleans. I can’t remember a Houston phone call more often than once monthly where I had to explain that I wasn’t an escort and I didn’t do body rubs.

When I moved here I didn’t understand the short temper of Mistresses I rented from when witnessing thier phone ettiquette. I have since learned that New Orleans “submissives” are made up of 80 to 90 percent bad apples. By the time a respectful submissive calls they find that the rude callers before them have ruined the mistresses mood for those that are polite.

I miss my slaves I had in Houston. I have a quite a few cherished slaves in New Orleans, but after being called all day by rude men who are looking for escorts I find that it can be difficult to reach the headspace easily so I can play with my personal slaves.

I am looking for a new method to regain the patience when dealing with assholes, and a new trigger for headspace so my poor slaves and regular clients don’t suffer for the effects of assholes on my mood.

Every Mistress experiences burn out periodically. Does any one have a method they use to get around such moods?

It is really agonizing when one of your greatest passions becomes a labor. I want to be back to normal, and enjoy my sessions and slaves to the full effect I once felt. I want to bring the most of myself into sessions for both me and my slaves. Maybe I should start to withdrawl my ad from publications since this is where most of the bad apples find me.

So, after venting this on livejournal I have only 15 minutes to prepare my headspace for a session. This slave is one of those who deserves my full capacities and passions for BDSM.

Why do men seem to have such trouble with punctuality, following instructions, and understanding the simplest concepts?

You tell a man to turn on the lights and they give you a confused look and start messing with the knobs on the stove. You tell a man to get on the freeway and they drive under the over pass and to the next street light. Are there such things as male to female professional translators? They seem to not understand a word you say, and stare at your tits till you are forced to yell and slap them upside the head!

Poor Amrita couldn’t go places with out men trying to give her indecent proposals, and they wouldn’t accept “no” for an answer with out getting irrate. And I had trouble trying to keep the hands in the crowds in the street from trying to find my nipples through my clothes.

With all the evidence of the intellect of the human male it is a miracle that any woman still has any heterosexual instincts towards reproduction.

I have to get this house back to normal. Batty, Kelly and Christian just hopped in the car to return to Houston, and Amrita is on to New York in the morning for her slaves there. She has her touring schedule to get back to and her filming in Tokyo.

I have to get back to my world. Sessions, dungeon rentals, costume designing, performance planning, performing, writing my articles and my planning of this new business venture I plan to start in my spare time. I wonder what sparetime that is but I will have a little here and there.

This Mardi Gras was so dead. The streets looked like just a typical Saturday night in the quarter.

I haven’t watched the news, but I swore I heard a second shooting this Mardi Gras. The shooting during the parade was during an altercation between teenagers, and a bystander was accidentally shot.

It was great having company here that never had seen Mardi Gras, because it made it more interesting for me. I usually avoid Mardi Gras.

I am so ready to get back to normal and on with trying to travel and perform. I think with the way New Orleans has been going that I need a break from the city. With the Mardi Gras decline, and closing of the best local bars and venues, and the people I know that have moved away it just feels like this town is dying.

Last night the first of the show had such a rocky energy for the performers since we were rushed in one hour to get on stage, and the hesitations and stand ups caused by the parades, but by the end of the show we were up to full power, and then came Amrita. Everyone was blown away. And Craig was the biggest bondage slut and attention whore.

So after the show we went to the quarter for the first hours of my birthday. Batty and Kelly caught up with us on Decatur.
We all were exhausted quickly and went back home and straight to bed.

Today, I got to wake up to all the phone calls, and then got to play with Anna, because she cancelled her flight home to San Fransisco. Amrita and I had her tied, electrified and all sorts of teasing and tenderness. And tonight, after sushi I got to learn some rope suspension techniques from Amrita and practice them on “empty”, and help her learn surface play piercing.

That is one of the wonderful things about being around others in the scene, you can teach each other. Especially when you come from 2 different cultures, and each culture has distinct differences in BDSM.

I am crossing my fingers about tonight.

I hope people really overcome the obstacles and attend the show. If they do, it is one step closer to seeing that they should house, if not sponsor or throw a decent fetish event in New Orleans.

So many things are not in our favor. There are parades happening right next to the club venue, so it is difficult to park, and even the performers have to walk a few blocks to get there with their bags and arround parades. It is an early show, and double booked so we don’t get to take up the whole evening with our show and special guests. That sucks.

And another thing that can hurt the turn out tonight…One person has been in a very public drama and may have people detered by such things. And another is the lovely rumors and gossip set forth in the BDSM by a person who has never even met me. And the people that are rude on-line and try to hurt a good show because of their personal issues, or friends personal issues with someone in the ranks of show production.

Hopefully these people that are so easily detered by petty crap will see the big picture…New Orleans has no fetish clubs, no major fetish events that are advertised to those out side of the scene and tourists, no scene or fetish events that get us recognition in magazines like Skin Two or Marquee or even American fetish and domination magazines like Taboo, DDI, American Dommes, or even the lesser magazines like Nugget. We have no stores that realize that there is latex that doesn’t come in a box and rip when you try to unfold it the first time. This town has hardly any fetish clothing available except cheap vinyl, or Lip-Service, and in the whole city only one store sells Stormy Leather Corsets, and they have only one style and it is only in black. They also don’t realize that the average woman or girl in the BDSM or Goth scene that would possibly buy such outfits are larger than a 6 or 9, and that even though some are 6 and 9 in the lower body, cheap clothes-including Lip-Service doesn’t make room for breast!

We are a port city, with a heavy tourist population. We have tons of money spent by them and they like anything that makes them feel wild, kinky or involves voyeurism of other people’s sexual tastes.

We have the foundation for a decent fetish scene, and we have a town that is 24/7 unlike most cities that hold major fetish events.

We don’t have the population of London and New York, but once you actually build up your events over time to the size and quality of Torture Garden and other such events you aren’t relying on the locals…people come from all over.

It takes time, it takes little things happening first. It takes things like having fetish celebrities and burlesque artists having places that will pay them to come in and do a show. It takes a venue having confidence that your first events will have enough draw to make a decent profit over the expenses of the show.

If people don’t discard their differences and just enjoy a show and support their community then it hurts us all. Not only the people you want to not support, but it makes it where a club owner thinks that doing such a show would put him at loss.

By showing up to such events our true numbers are counted, which allows for more performers and shows that we don’t have, and larger events to slowly start happening here.

Your attendance, your cover, you are what makes a successful scene.

I or any other person can bring such performers here, but there has to be $$$ to make it happen, and money comes from attendance. We could bring them to empty rooms over people’s laziness and idle gossip and eventually a club will drop support of the night, or event, or show. Soon, yet again we would have no one coming here.

I hope that people really realize that there hasn’t been any fetish event (unless gay) with an internationally reknowned performer, even if it were just a modest weekly show of 4 girls in any rememberable point of New Orleans’ existance. And there won’t ever be if support isn’t given to those who bring it to you. Love or hate or believe what ever you want about who ever…but atleast respect that these people are the type that try to make this town have something cool other than sitting in a bar on Decatur the same as you did last week.

Really, a lot of the negativity I get is more from the fact of how much I am out there doing. It makes people credit me as being concieted but I’m not. I just figure why bitch and do nothing like the rest of this town, when I can struggle to make it better. That type of aggressive persistance isn’t always popular. Screw populararity if it gets in the way of me and what I want.

I don’t care if you like me so much as respect the effort to change this town, and give the support to make my efforts effective.

W

I can’t wait.

We have Mistress Amrita ( http://www.tokyomistress.com )all the way in from Tokyo and Creme Brulee’ from Ixion Burlesque Company in NYC performing with the Lil Beaux Peepshow and to boot it is my birthday at midnight, and Mardi Gras.

We need you to come out and support this performer and the Lil Beaux Peepshow. Show the owners of our larger live venues the interest in fetish performers and burlesque, so maybe one day they will be supporting us in holding a fetish event people will travel great distances to attend.

The show begins promomptly at 9 p.m., and the Howlin Wolf double booked tonight, so the show will end at 11, before a band takes over the venue. I was hoping that we would get to have the whole evening, but that just leaves us able to go else where and celebrate.

Amrita is the first international fetish performer I know of to do a show in a regular venue, advertised to the public in all of New Orleans. There have been demos and workshops at local functions held by NOBLE and NOSS, but this is actually the type of show that is done at major fetish events like Torture Garden and Rubber Ball. And it is done in a non-bdsm environment with a prodominantly vanilla audience, so it will be reaching a lot of people that have misconceptions about the sensual nature and art that bondage and S&M really is.

Who knows, maybe this will lead to us slowly bringing more performers from international fetish events to town, and building an interest enough to make a major fetish event happen here. This town could use it. We have great nightlife and tourist attractions for other events, why not for fetish events?

I intend to bring Amrita back as often as I can so we can get a fetish event worth people traveling across the world to attend. Also, I get the added bonus of learning more about shibari techniques (the ones only able to be learned by private instruction).

I hope all of you try to support this type of performance in our city, as well as the Lil Beaux Peepshow. Show large venues like Howlin’ Wolf that there is a market to hold and house such events. Not just the bands like Genitorturers and Impotent Sea Snakes, but real fetish celebrities.

I talked to Mistress Persephone, and she is waiting for me to find a way to get her a show or event to do here. Many Mistresses love New Orleans, and travel for sessions here..so we definitely are over due for something like this, especially after the cancellation of “Fetish in the Fall”.

Mistress Genevieve
http://msgenevieve.com
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/mistressgenevievesslaves
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/lilbeauxpeepshow

After a 14 hour flight from Japan to New Orleans Mistress Amrita arrived.

It was a relaxed evening. We had some Juan’s Flying Burrito. We picked up some Fu-Ki plum wine and sat at the house watching a few movies. I showed here Superstarlet A.D. which is one of my favorites. We also watched Videodrome and House of 1000 Corpses.

I have been up all day working on this costume still.

Tonight we are off to Howlin’ Wolf with the rest of the Lil Beaux Peepshow. While there all of us are going to be on stage with the band Ratt Poison which is an 80’s hair metal cover band. Then who knows what will happen.

I have been up all night workingon stuff so I really need a nap later. It will be a while till then, and it will be brief. I have too much stuff to do.

often part of being a Dominatrix is being a sexual advisor…even when the slave isn’t your own.

I felt that this circumstance is a common one.
This is my responce to a slave that is in love with a Mistress, and she is happily married and not returning of such intense passion:

Did you reveal that to her?
I mean it is common for slaves to be in-love with their mistress, and their mistress be caring yet not in-love with the slave. Infact, being in love would make someone suddenly submissive to a point, and if she reciprocated the emotions I think you would find her less desirable. The fact that she cares yet doesn’t return your passions is just fuel for obsession. I don’t think you’re the first…it is just that most Mistresses have a line drawn with slaves as to the ultimate potential of their relationship, and it would take someone truly a soul mate to break down those convictions…in older worlds and societies where there were real slave and masters, even when in love the masters would never marry or be in a true romantic relationship out of their class or caste.

Just as the emotion of rage is dangerous for a dominant when dealing with a slave, the emotion of passion is too…it ruins the ability to be the sadist and tormenter that you need her to be.

If you haven’t been obsessive and brought your affections to her in a negative manner yet, then I advise you return to your mistress and be happy to be able to serve her in any way or level she allows, and feel fortunate to be her’s.

Mistress Genevieve
http://msgenevieve.com

There was a knock at the door today. I opened it thinking it was Lucia arriving for her session. It was my neighbor instead. In her arms she had a quite heavy box with a bow on it and a card with my name. Appearantly, I had missed a delivery. There is now a rather nice, and definitely a conciderably high priced bottle of champagne in the fridge.

Natasha was with me when it arrived and she declined to want to open it. The XBF and I chatted on the phone about it, but it seems not I or anyone else is interested in drinking. Even though it isn’t rare that I don’t feel like drinking, I am in New Orleans and it is Mardi Gras, and no one felt like drinking.

Atleast the XBF reminded me that it will be a great way to great Amrita when she arrives. Popping a bottle and kicking back. I am sure she will want to relax here and adjust after her travels, especially since there is a whole week for her to be a tourist. I imagine no less than the first 3-4 hours will be becoming comfortable and settling down in the house as my guest and perhaps getting dinner.