LOL, I just read Sarah’s journal…poor dear was frightened by our halloween impromptu enema party…she acted as if we were being perverted or something…lol

I am still waiting on my equipment to come back from Scarlett’s. I only sent 2 pieces, but I do miss them.

I have a 2 hour session in a bit, and I have a long evening ahead of me.

I am still tired.

I have yet another performance scheduled this month, seperate from my performing with Lil Beaux Peep Show. I am doing “Art for Fuck Sake” on November 22nd. I have to prepare for that.

I also will be doing an independant performance at Immaculate Deception’s show at the Big Top on December 20th.

I debuted my new skit this week. This was my first skit that didn’t have a bondage variant or S&M edge, though it still was vinyl clad. It was an “I Love Lucy” tribute. It was cute, but we needed to be mic-ed. I think I need to get myself a lavalier mic, so I can be hands free and still be heard on certain shows. I could also have Aldo use it so he can walk freely mic-ed, or people I do shows with. Our performance company growing up always had them. The accoustics in Howlin Wolf weren’t meant to carry for live performances, it was a warehouse.

Last night we had twice the crowd we usually draw. It was great, and we had a band close the night. We were the headliners, even though we were the opening act.

I have a long sessions today. the previous session didn’t make it so I actually got to get stuff done around here.

I look forward to staying home and catching CSI tonight, and catching up on some rest. I think I have a late night session later though.

When I have a little time I am going to fine tune my Clown skit, and choreograph the Lucy number. I want things to run smoother than the last show, which I think was only off because of almost having 3 consecutive shows. The show at Buddha Belly the nigth before was actually packed till 9a.m. and Buddha Belly opens at 11 a.m., and closes usually at 4 a.m. I am glad I got out of there when I did.

Man, I have had next to no sleep. I just got in from tonights performance. We performed with Vamp Star from Atlanta, Torrent Vaccine and Synchro Nine Factor.

We had a lot of support from Heavenly Trip to Hell from Los Angeles…they somehow wandered into our rehersal on Thursday and have been at my show at Scarlett’s and our show tonight at Buddha belly, and unfortunately they all have to get back to Cali tomorrow so they won’t catch the real show at Howlin Wolf tomorrow.

I have to be back at the call for the little beaux Peep Show in less than 16 hours. That isn’t to mention the preps I have to make for the show well before then.

Sadie is going on vacation till Thursday, lucky!

I have a backed up group of people waiting for me to be available for sessions on Monday. I have a list of numbers to call back, I have numerous un answered emails. I have a lot of work to make up, since I have had little computer time since Wednesday.

I swear, any less sleep and I will start having religeous visions, and start believing in crazy christian stuff. I need sleep for sanity. No one will give me a second to rest.

Ah, Halloween was a time for old friends. I had a great night over all.

I got the new high heel chair for my crossdressing area yesterday.

I got a ton of new books the day before.

Otherwise, my performing and rehearsals have made this week pretty hectic.

Last night I knew I was going to see Kelly, Todd, Sarah, Batty and her boy, Jaymz and his girlfriend, Dan and Angelica…but I actually got a bonus of out of town friends. I didn’t expect to see Spyke and Miss Hell.
“empty” was hanging out with us for a while, but he got tired, and all we were doing was hanging out on a car, so he asked if I would need him or if he could go to bed. He then left.

Most of the time was spent hanging out on a car infront of the Whirling Dervish on Decatur. Felina was dressed as “The evil cheap champagne fairy” passing out free glasses of champagne on the sidewalk encouraging horrid cheap champagne hangovers. She gave us a bottle for our own devious intents at home.

We walked up to the Marigny in search of this band that plays the Thierman, but we couldn’t find them, Sarah was hungry so we split in 2 cabs while she got food at Verti Marte. We ran back home to my house, where the boys and Sarah all were tired and wanting to go back to the hotel, but Batty, Miss Hell and I were having fun till that point. Sean was already pooping out and falling asleep.

There were too many fairies this Halloween. It seems like half the costumes had wings. I wasn’t in costume. I really don’t consider my fetish costuming costumes, and I didn’t feel in the mood to fuss with a corset, and I was already in high heels, so I would have enough discomfort. I loaned Sean my Misfit’s Skeletal shirt and people thought it was a skeleton costume…nope, just a Misfits Shirt.

Batty went as Patsy from Absolutely Fabulous, complete with the empty bottle of cheap Champagne that she had slammed. Spyke was Spyke, Miss Hell was Miss Hell, Kelly seemed pretty much like Kelly, Skarah was the Bride of Frantenstien, Batty’s boy was a British soldier with a plume hat. Todd was Voodoo Todd, with feathers in his hair, smudges on his face, he looked more like a Shaman. and Jaymz was a priest (appropriate).

Parties disbanned from the house in 3 seperate cabs, little by little.

Funny, they say that girls are demanding, but it was Todd that got sick that dragged Kelly away, it was Kent getting cranky that made Batty have to catch a cab to go after him, and it was Spyke waking up wanting his hotel room that made Miss Hell have to leave. Sean was the only boy to roll along with the whole night, but he started falling asleep at the end.

Now, I am pooped, I have to clean this house and prepare for the show. I got a few hours sleep, I was in bed before dawn, so I must have actually got atleast 6 hours.

My thighs are so sore from being so busy and wearing high heels constantly. I actually think the hectic pace of the last 3 days has made some weight drop on me. I’ve been eating, mostly fish, veggies, sushi and the stiff at the VIP dinner (where I had more than enough food).

And in an end note, I kicked Jacque out…she was too irresponsible, and too daft. Going out at night is fine, but if you don’t work hard, then you shouldn’t party hard. Productivity, and purpose are essential to feeling good about ones self. If you don’t like the feeling of not having a value, then find a project to have pride in, rather than try to drink it all away.

Doing domination to the best of your ability takes really researching the body, asking questions of those more experienced, experiencing it from the bottom side (and later reflecting on the emotions and sensations felt by a scene), and watching for patterns in a subs interests and personality, and watching body language, a lot of focus, a lot of caring, a lot of creativity, and a solid sense of self and self respect, just to name a few things in a very long list. Focus and really getting curious and researching and asking questions was not her forte, nor was answering her phone or waking up in the mornings. Nor was a few other traits and practices that I won’t point out. I warned her when she wanted to train under me that the first week or two would be easy, but after that I am very demanding and quite strict in how my house will and won’t be. I have no problem breaking people down with words, and saying all the stuff they don’t want to hear about how they are fucking up. If I don’t like something, you will be the first to know.