There is so much intimacy and energy shared in a good S&M scene.
Tonight IO had the two polar opposites of this. One was tapping into someone I had a 2 hour session with tonight, and sharing very happy energy…feeling cleansed.
The next was a person I had seen the other day, and he wanted to see me again, and I actually gave him a session at a very late hour that I normally wouldn’t take.

The later session was only 30 minutes, but despite the sadism it was very passionate and intense, even in the face of the time constraints. Something in the voice on the phone really made me feel he was reaching out and he needed to come play tonight. On the other side of sub space was a very dark pain. The session was very emotional, and once he broke he really broke.

I wanted to reach out to him but I couldn’t bare the heavy burden he had, and I encouraged him to seek out a counselor that deals with berievement.

Otherwise, up until he fell into the abyss after we finished the scene, I had a good day beyond good days.

I found out that I will be in a French fetish magazine, and possibly on the cover, and hopefully going to France for a fetish ball. Things seem to happen fast around here. But then again a year is a long time, so don’t count chickens before they hatch.

Tomorrow I have to wake bright and early to meet a prospective slave. And after that I have to go pick up my new 3 wheel cycle. It is a tri-cycle for big people. It is sooooo cool, and it’s pink. I was in love the minute I saw it, and the bike guy said that if I waited a couple of days he was going to fix it up, and re paint it. I am totally in the clouds about it.

And then after that, I have the same subby that had the 2 hour intense session today, insisting that he has to have a second session. He was very blown away. Infact, I broke his needle phobia and pierced him 4 times. He was shocked, and I was proud, he was in a state of euphoria, and disbelief that he did it. The first 2 he didn’t realize I had even done, and he didn’t mention piercing at all in negotiation.