10.31
Murphy’s law seemed to want to ruin me and my evening..but, I WIN.
In the face of all adversities Sadie and I did 2 of the performances together. She did her dancing during the ropes so those that had no attention span for rope bondage could be teased and seduced by her, untill we would both play, myself more than her, with the subbies.
The last show she had to leave early due to having to open the bar in the morning. We often boggle at how much a like we are, we are so very driven and no bullshit when it is time to be serious, and when we let opur hair down it is on!
Between shows last night, rather than scratch my ass and pick my nose…we found juvenial games to amuse ourselves. Batty shows up after a long drive here, and we end up taking the rolling chairs on the pation and pretending we were in bumpercars in fetish clothes, then we (she, Sean, and I) would ride around the patio pretending the chairs were trains.
With all that stress of the day, it was great to find a way to just kick back and goof off with her. Batty and I have had some nutty memories together…she is but another driven, focussed girl. She works her ass off, and then others like to talk shit because they see her face everywhere. They should take her lead, ather than hold her success against her. Sadie and I also get the same prejudices…we have take charge attitudes, and we feel we deserve the best, and we work hard to give ourselves everything we deserve out of life doing the things we love. There is no reason to apologize..if you think we are vain or self-centered…well, you hqave to have your own shit together, because in the end it’s all you. Born alone-die alone. We all 3 care too much, but when it is time to cut off bad relationships, it’s just time. And when we work hard we promote the hell out of ourselves, because part of the pleasure of doing what you love is sharing it with others.
I introduced Batty and Sadie because not only does Batty make corsets and Sadie is a corset fetishist, Batty is a belly dancer and is interested in trying out her belly dancing for the shows. Batty is still trying to move here in 6 months. And Batty already comes complete with stage name…Batty Boobs. I think knowing batty well, and being quite a kindred spirit with Sadie that they will get along famously.
Batty was dying to leave and come over here, even though she rented a hotel room. It just isn’t the same. All my friends feel really at home at my house, and I have all sorts of fun toys, which Batty and I played like kids in a candy store when we got here.
After she left Sean and I did some very intimate play, needles, electricity, meditation and energy. I don’t think that I have had this type of exchange since Domina Shannon was living with me, and Mistress Heather was always coming over. We would meditate together and play with electricity and piercing. That has been 5 years now!
Batty and I just like getting kooky, but this time she played with more stuff. Damn where was our Bratfink and our Virgin Cliffy? We needed our prudish voices of reason to tell us we were crazy perverts.
I didn’t think I would have this moment of peace today.
I wish we (CoRE) were back in New Orleans again this year. Last year was fun and crazy. I can’t believe we didn’t hang out with you more. Well tell Batty I said hello and I hope your halloween is exciting.Take care.
Will do, yeah, I was sad I only got to hang out with you guys one night…you had so many performances. Spike was trying to arrange all of you to stay with me, but I just couldn’t handle that many people here, with work and relationship, and school.
I will tell Batty you guys said “Hi”. I just talked to Shannon and Cali the otherday, they are well in New Mexico.
Tell everyone I said “Hello”.
Happy Halloween, and look me up when in town…and say hello to “No-man”
let’s see…
Whether she likes it or not tell Tracy I said hello….despite what has happened between us (which I am VERY in the dark about – although I get the feeling that Kelly has something to do with it…I do not like being called a liar and then when confronting the person they cowardly avoid the opportunity to publically either prove or disprove my “lies”) I still like her (Tracy – I can still do without bratfink, but do not dislike her) very much (and think she rocks). She is a very driven person who has done a lot. She may not understand why she is the focus of so much negativity, but it is something that I have a feeling she will learn to use eventually better than she is now.
I hope eventually to be able to correct anything I may have done that has caused her to feel such hostility towards me…She is one of the few people here who I have some amount of respect for.
Re: let’s see…
She just had some feeling for you, and when you left town and didn’t call regularly she felt that she was waiting around and you were not interested, for the most part. You two got very close very fast, and she expected to talk regularly in San Fransisco…and I don’t know all the stuff about being called a liar.
Re: let’s see…
Don’t really know either about the stuff about being called a liar…it is just annoying…I just tend to ramble on a little much when I do not proof my posts (which I sometimes do to make sure that I am not saying anything I would feel comfortable yeeling in the middle of the stret)
But as far as SF…I had one of the worst Times in SF that I have had in a long time. It was the start of whatever is currently wrong with my liver. In the Hospital I was staying I couldn’t find out where I was when I was conscious long enough to do anything, and then when I got out I was really fucked up….In a lot of ways. I feel badly that I didn’t call her, and told her so…I was really interested in her (really kind of still am), but as I said…I am just so physically fucked up that it is hard for me to give anyone as much attention as I would like. And she seems to need a lot of it (that is not an insult…It is just that she responds well to attention) that I wish that I could give, but when I don’t pay attention to myslef very well…I wind up in the hospital with tubes coming out of (or going into) every parts of me.
It is immensely FRUSTRATING!…I had some of the most fun with her that I have had for a very long time…..
Re: let’s see…
well, maybe you should write her that directly, I think she could really use your attention now.