Not ever again…if she pulls that shit one more time I am fucking kicking her out!

This is written here for public record that when that point comes it wasn’t that she didn’t know. When she wakes up that is it…I am fucking telling her that it was the last time last night.

Sshe gets fucked up, she gets depressed, she hides behind liquor and sex rather than even slightly trying to get right with herself, and then it is time for the “watch me slash and burn show”!!!!
Fuck that. I signed on for a roommate and a partner, not for a toddler or a fucking single patient psych-ward where I have to hide all sharp objects, all equipment that she wants to use the last of so I won’t have any when it is time for a session.

Last night she promissed before she started to go there…I knew she wasn’t dealing with her depression and I told her “tonight, no cutting yourself up, and no piercing , none of that shit.”

Now this may seem hypocritical knowing my past, but I WASN”T DRUNK OF TONS OF LIQUOR AND CHAMPAGNE< WHEN I DID IT! I had to find her one night moping in the dark being oh so "uber goober goth tard" with all these needles and razor blades fucked up. I had to fight her to pull them out, and then I had to spend a half hour stopping her bleeding because drunk people don't tend to clot really well, and they allso tend to nick a vein a bit and bleed stronger than just flesh to flesh. Just what I need...I could lose my lease, and have a whole shit load of other problems if fucked up little girls end up leaving my house in ambulances or hearst! I don't like having to clean up after it the next day either. Anyway, she promised "I won't". Then while we were in the middle of the room all hanging out it didn't first occur to me that she was playing with gloves. Then I realized there was a bottle of alcohol on the floor, and I walked over and said," No, I know what this means..." and I took the needles away. Not to mention I have already had half of my needles wasted on her bullshit. I went through the house hiding the scapels and needles. She promised that not again, that she hadn't done it (which is the same as standing at a bank teller'swindow with a gun and being stopped before asking for the money. then using that as your plea for inocennt in court). They all tell me that it is over, and then twice more this morning I had to deal with her tantrums because she wants needles and stuff. She already has no clue about piercings, and she goes and nicks her veins well enough that it is full constant flow. One night it took me close to a half hour of putting pressure to get her to stop bleeding. I don't feel fucking sorry for her, and I don't have time to be on safety watch so I don't have to explain that a person not allowed on my lease is living with me.!